happiness is...

happiness is priceless! so when you experience it, embrace and love the moment...it doesn't stay for good. 

pictured stories

my pictured stories

                                          sunday sundae

                                          skateboard graffitti

                                          the kitty experience

my dog spike

                                                team building magic

                                                 dressing room

                                              cactus

                                               fetus with a face

                                            face-off

                                           a happy mess

                                            the practice

                                           split

                                           one paradise

kidding around

                                             random

                                           fresh tomatoes

                                          people watch

                                           busy feet

                                            waiting

crisps

                                           desert sunset

                                           mother and child

                                            artworked

                                          lady in the water

the thinker

i was so depressed for sometime...my life went upside down. shut me down for a while...that's when i got hooked into capturing life's moments. i want to share some of my shots of life.

a real frog prince story

if only people knew the entire story...

you got me that time because i saw you are a good person, had i known since day one you approached me that you are worse than an animal, i never gave you a chance. telling me fabricated stories someone cheated you and that person needed money to help survive when away then breaks up with you with the reason that person found someone better than you and you’re hurt and wanna die. I said, what kind of person would do such a thing?  Being with someone for ages and just because  you are apart then find someone else, and trash you like you never matter anymore. On record, you were not even able to work that time so you asked for a long vacay. You claimed that person hurt you and you dread the day you would accept that person again. I made it clear when you pursued me, if you still want to continue being with your cheater, no need to let me fall and set your best foot forward. But you guaranteed not to go back. So i allowed you into my life. Some people might have noticed. 2 years that was.  I thought you were the best person ever, and shame on that person who did this to you.  i don't even know you. but you forced yourself to me putting all good things about you in my head letting me believe you were real and good natured. so i believed you. after sometime of bliss letting people see how good you are, you'd say you need to play up with your past because there is no reason to trash you no more and that you need to comply that you  are so into that person so you could get your money back. you even told me you need to get your share of the land you mistakenly signed as a conjugal property. You say, that person refused to pay debt if you will not get back together. So you laid your plan and told me everything will just be a big act. You said after letting the person believe you and gave you back your money and piece of land, then you will let that person get a taste of what was done to you. And there we will be together happily.  knowing that you are a good person, i did believe your plan. So as the relationship was so discreet, people i know sees it. but as time goes by, i knew it was all an act that you are doing to manipulate me . you continuously lied about everything, saying you have issues and i should just be silent and be beside you.  i supported you all the way, even let you borrow a huge amount to help you when you went away. Bein’ always there for you when you were sick, when no one of your friends even visited you. Reminding you of things especially your meds for you are so sickly. I never cheated. Best part is as you claim you are a good person, i was a huge fan of your stories. As you borrowed money, you promised to pay me back, it was even in writing. and again, i believed you. one thing i cannot understand is if that person cheated you, as you claimed and did one horrible thing in your life, why still embrace it like nothin' happened? and if you say it is love, why did you even pursue me, why   why say things like you are such a good person and even claimed i am so lucky to have you as my significant other. if you say you are faithful, you should have never ever approached me. we never have been together for two years...just the truth to at least give people an idea of who you are..i was so convinced you are the greatest person i have ever met. And i am so sure that is the same act you do in front of the people you deal with so you come out clean. i just don't know why you have to keep on pretending just to get me to have faith in you. You never existed in my life till you make your way for me to notice you.  It looks like the fabricated story that you once told me, was the exact story of what you have done. well, people reading this would say i was stupid. Yeah, and i know no person has not been stupid in their life for once.  Let’s just say i believe people are good and has values. So i tend to trust right away. I never knew there’s a poser human that exists. One who pretends to be good all the time but in reality it is worse than any animal around.  i hope people who will read this will help them really know the person before trusting them your life.  Being silent about everything sometimes doesn’t help. It is just giving that person a power to hurt more and still be treated so well by others. I just want to let this story be known to serve as a lesson that looks really could be deceiving. If people are too good with you, chances are they are the people who would want to bring you down. I just really don’t know your reason why this happened. And as you walk with a big mardi gras mask on your face, i hope at least you could show that you are somewhat educated by returning the money you have borrowed.  And please don’t claim i am chasing you, because i do not. I even donated you back to the one whom you claimed cheated you. Hope this serves as a lesson for women like me, do not trust too much. Just be glad you didn’t experience hell like i did. But i am happy to say, this person is out of my life now. And to you, sorry to say your plan to ruin my life, didn’t work out well. I may be hurt, but now i am standing up again. It was your loss, not mine...

me? fraudster?

One thing I hate about my life at work is that they treat you like a thief. It feels like you have not been taught values to dig in info that should not be yours. Upon goin to work, you'll be checked. When you get out of the place, the more they check on you. To the extent that they could check ur packed napkins for some customer account numbers or any info. I was a victim of this inhumane checkin, violation of personal property. Today, when I was about to go home that bitch guard checked my bag and opened almost about everything, starting from my beauty arsenal, contented she dint see anything, still not convinced, she opened my other pouch where i keep my cards and post it notepads, she found nothin. And freakin' still not contented she opened my journal, reading each of the pages of my life. On one page she saw a series of numbers, her nose tellin her account numbers! She went on and told me they need to get my journal for checkin' , I freakin' said hell no! You can't get into my private life, you bitch! she wouldn't stop, so i just gave her the page wherein picture codes that shes houndin as account numbers are all written. I left in good faith and clear conscience that I'm not doin any freakshow fraud. My parents didn't brought me up to be somethin like that. So mad I went back and showed them the pictures with those matching codes, freakin' told me they don't believe! So, you say I fabricated those picture codes? Damn Hell crazy!!!! Let's see tomorrow, I know Ill prove them wrong, and I'll do it on their faces!!!

2009

same life. new year. what's in store? i dunno. this january things done: I've finished off reading the twilight saga, its a must read betcha! Edward and
Bella's lovestory is soo good to be true. Well other things done in jan? got my new haircut that I'm regrettin' and prayin wld grow rapidly. I'm still full of frustration. Though got a raise from work. that's a good thing to look forward to though.

rebirth

after death comes rebirth. a new start. beginning of an end. i stopped writing during my darker days. why? i don't have any reason. i was always questioning why is it that i always have to hurt? always be the one who gives in? always the unlucky one. but one day phoenix came to me and i have decided to live again. it was a struggle to survive, to keep up. but i have to be strong. seems that hardwork is paying off little by little everyday. soon i will rise like the phoenix full of fire and desire to live. i have rebirth and so happy to be back.

hello.

fully dysfunctional

I am writing this to feed the rebel soul inside me that is still struggling to be suited in a mediocre world. I have been living in this so-called "world" and I feel so enslaved by it. That is why I started to rebel.
In the first place, this is not really where I wanted but I am trying hard to make myself fit in, and besides I don't have a choice, I need to exist in order to survive. I have spent gruelling days making myself to be safely there to be able to accomplish my responsibilities. But I never exerted effort. What for? The world that I am in now does not nor even will not recognize it at all.
This world favors what they think is popular and what feels good or let's say will do more good for them. They will never see your potential to be out of slavery if it does not favor the so-called gods. So I continued to rebel and lived a fishbowl life. Everybody watches my little peepshow but nobody notices the things I do.
For so many years, I've seen a lot. Unworthy slaves placed on pedestals, so-called gods who are testing their new got powers to lower slaves, and the usual dirty works. I know this would never change. So, I decided I could never make it accept me no matter how hard I try. I know I have to dance with them and dig in the pool of slavery. This life really would not work for me. But for now, I still have to embrace because i'm still powerless. Being enslaved is also my way out of oppression. Deep in myself I also deserve to be in a pedestal. And I'm gonna work hard to get out of this rotten world.

011108 friday, 12.05p

i am really getting addicted to blogging. like morphine that enslaves, creating posts is being cathartic. downside of this new hobby is that i no longer have time for my folks, and less sleeping hours. i don't know where this would take me but i still continue to be a slave of my pen. as i go on thinking, i gave birth to three more blogs:

1. nine lives- almost immortal as we could call it. this blog is my journey to the paranormal. since i was a child i could feel there's a connection.
link: idreamofimmortality.blogspot.com

2. a day in the life of harajuku 5 - this blog is dedicated to my 5 most inspiring friends. i wanna make a film documentary about them, but since filming is quite expensive, i thought of an alternative. using pen is as good as camera lenses.
link: adayinthelifeofharajuku5.blogspot.com

3. signature poison- this was the original title of my pilot blog. but as i go writing, i was thinking of concepts. and a dark title wouldn't suit my first blog, so i decided to have this blog dedicated to my dark writings and rotten thoughts.
link: signaturepoison.blogspot.com

hope you'll enjoy my peepshow!

010808 tuesday, 11.15a

huh... another day is done. exhausted from those dreaded calls and negative people around. why is it that humans are created to be not satisfied? to want more and give less? haaaaay... my brain's all drained. i can't think of anything to say. i just hope tomorrow's gonna be a little bliss. need to have my eyes shut. and my mouth in silence. shhhhh...

shiny hair recipe

Here's how to make your homemade avocado hair mask:

+ mash one very ripe avocado
+ 2-3 tablespoons of olive oil
+ banana and an egg together in a blender.
+ blend until the mask has the texture of a cake butter, with no chunks.
+ apply one quarter of the mask to dry locks for 10 minutes.
+ shampoo and condition as usual.

On being gothic...

To be considered a goth, entails living a gothic lifestyle. Being a gothic does not merely deal with the elaborate and uncustomary way of dressing. It is more of a passion for the unusual things and defying the dictates of the society. The exterior aspect is not a basis to be considered a goth.

Gothic Make Up: Look Pale and Dead
Have someone ever caught your attention because she just seemed to look like a walking corpse because of her make up? You may find her insane but her make up is in fact a symbolism of a lifestyle or a sense of fashion which is known as gothic fashion. Yes, a pale look combined with dark dark eye make up is called gothic make up. It goes with a remarkably out of this modern world clothing.
Gothic make up is in fact quite difficult to achieve as compared to any everyday make up. This is the reason why gothic people are considered creative and highly fashionable. The process of achieving a gothic look entails time and patience. Since gothic make up is basically focused on the eyes, still hands are important in achieving excellent goth eyes.

Gothic Jewelry: Accesories That Speak
Jewelry or accessories create an added impact in any clothing. Jewelry or accessories make a look more appealing. Although gothic clothing are already appealing on its own right, adding on accessories particularly jewelry, enhances the look, making it more appealing.
Gothic jewelery are not different to any other jewelry. They range from necklaces, rings, bracelets and earrings. However, what is unique and exceptional about gothic jewelry is the fact that they are more elaborate in designs, sizes, and shapes. In terms of design, Gothic jewelry are inclined to what can be said as "dark" or mysterious designs.

Gothic Hairstyle: Stand Out Hairstyle
Being gothic means being different and standing out from the crowd. It is more of a lifestyle than just mere fashion. It means living a life which defies gravity. Being gothic is a turning away from the dictates of the society, a reason why perhaps it shall remain as a mystery why they are so.
There is no such thing as half gothic or one fourth gothic. When you say gothic, you embrace the culture fully. You live it and dress like it from head to foot. When you speak of head to foot, it means including your crowning glory, the hair.

Gothic dressing means out of this world dressing. Others might even perceive these people as weird or insane. Some might even speak of them as people from the dark side or people who were born in the past but are living in the present. This is because their style of clothing can be inspired by the medieval or romantic periods.
When you talk about medieval or romantic period inspired clothing, this means black or dark elaborate dresses. This also includes tons and tons of laces.

Gothic Clothing: Creatively Uncustomary Clothing
A person's sense of fashion and style reflects his or her personality. It is a form of art which creatively expresses your personality and lifestyle all at the same time. The way you dress up speaks of individualism. It is something that is unique to you. Every person is given the right to self expression and fashion may just seem to be a perfect ground to practice such expression of one's self..
While most people would choose to dress up in cool colors, gothic people would rather wear black. They may seem to stand out and be perceived as a defiant of customary dressing, but this people are actually brave souls who are highly in touch with their beliefs and personality.

be best dressed

What will I wear? That is the question I always ask myself whenever I'm goin' out and do some errands, party, go to work and even before bedtime. Funny, but true. I'm sure almost all women in the world and even men are experiencing the same hassle I go through each day. Dressing up is a big deal for us because we always want to set our best foot forward. Dressing up gives us empowerment.It builds our confidence. So I thought making up this collage of Hollywood's best dressed women would in some ways help pick up some ideas that may be useful in creating everyday Haute Couture. You need not take all the trends that you see in fashion magazines, instead use it as a guide on how you will create your own look. Dressing up is not about fashion. It's is the art of the wearer.

be your own doll! experiment!

010608 sunday, 5.30a

out from my dreaded shift, i come to my sanctuary. hmmm... i'm beginnin to realize i am no goth nor punk gal. i think i am the pink goth punk hippie. imagine how does a person like that look? well...let's meet. yikes! im overbreak! brb....

MAKE-UP TIPS

here are some useful tips in applying make-up:

+ skin should be clean and hydrated before any blush touches your face.
+ GET NEUTRAL= dot liquid concealer under your eyes, around your nose and anywhere else that belies a perfectly even tone.
+ set concealer with translucent powder. use blottin' paper for touch-ups instead of powder.
+EYELIGHTS= the thicker the eyebrow, the more youthful you look.
+ GET GLOWING= bronzers: for pale skin, use the ones with more pink and peach tones rather than browns.
+ lips: go for pinks
+blush: use a peachy powder blush

more to come...

010508- saturday. 6.30a

just had tuna pesto and now im havin cheesecake for dessert. what a day! i'm bombarded with so many calls. workin in a call center exhausts me the most. but do i have any choice? i need it in building my empire. my lifestyle business. so this year, i better save up. hey, need to go. im late again. overbreak!

zzzzzzz...2

im done with you, my hypnotically draining routinary work. another day is over. bliss is here again. my bed is waiting. i'm comin' home.

zzzzzzz...

just got out of my rotten shift. im all drained. cant think of anything. everyday's goin just the same. zzzzzz... i'm sooo sleepy. i need my bed now. one good thing today, i t s m y r e s t d a y...

yihahee...

121907.marishka's year of the blog. welcome to the world of posters. you can now express your inner feelings. you are now saved from the world of isolation and despair. yihaheee...this just means try and be happy. U deserve bliss sometimes. get out of your black book and explore. hope this time this works...enjoy my love/hate.